hiho
now here's the thing - I want to do a series of posts on something personal. but I hesitate to write it here. I can't explain why, except that I don't feel as if it would be right to put here. I want to write about my own experiences - because recently I've felt as though I must write - and as though this is what I must write. the reason I will do it at another adress is that I would like to keep the rainbow connection as I see it - a place of hope - that is what rainbows symbolise to me anyways. what I wish to write about is not hopeless, just heavy so I feel the need to distinguish the two blogs. plus this way if you're in the mood for heavy you can just go to the other one. so -for the moment let's title it - Unorphanhood - can be found at http://talibah2.blogspot.com/.
don't worry, I still intend to keep writing here... and on Tom tales.... haha - I do have a habit of biting off more than I can chew - keeps things interesting I guess.
in anycase - I'm as always glad for your faithful audience.
(heart) tulip
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Friday, June 23, 2006
He abides in the silence
Recently, I came across a wonderful passage in an Adult Learner (a lesson book at church). The passage was contained in a lesson which dealt with the lonliness that we often experience as human beings.
The Divine Comforter
As a special provision, the Lord has arranged for the believer to have a lifelong Companion in the person of the Holy Spirit (John 14:16-18)
He abides in the silence; He pervades the darkness. “Personal awareness of the Spirit who dwelleth in you and shall be in you” means that the believer is never alone.
The believer has available to him the means of being alone without being lonely. He can read the Word and be aware of the Holy Spirit in everyday life.
The passage struck me because the imagery is beautiful. The idea of there being a comforter who lives in a quiet place is wonderful. I would like to highlight the image - "he pervades the darkness". For me the dark is not a place that I often fear. In fact - for a time I used to love the night time -I found it to be a time of cool escape from the hot, stressful day. But there was a time when I feared the dark. When I was four my mother died suddenly. I became terrified of - well - it's hard to explain really what I was terrified of - it wasn't exactly the darkness - it was the way I felt mostly at night - I felt as though my back was exposed to the world.. to something out there.
and I know there are many who feel this way - not just at four but at twenty four, at forty-four.
So when I read that line, I remembered how I felt about the night - both the negative and the positive feelings. And I realised that the Holy Spirit which abides with us, is with us during both of those nights. He abides when we seek rest and comfortingly, He abides with us through the darkest and most difficult nights.
(heart) Tulip
(Passage John 14:16-18:16And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever— 17the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. 18I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.)
The Divine Comforter
As a special provision, the Lord has arranged for the believer to have a lifelong Companion in the person of the Holy Spirit (John 14:16-18)
He abides in the silence; He pervades the darkness. “Personal awareness of the Spirit who dwelleth in you and shall be in you” means that the believer is never alone.
The believer has available to him the means of being alone without being lonely. He can read the Word and be aware of the Holy Spirit in everyday life.
The passage struck me because the imagery is beautiful. The idea of there being a comforter who lives in a quiet place is wonderful. I would like to highlight the image - "he pervades the darkness". For me the dark is not a place that I often fear. In fact - for a time I used to love the night time -I found it to be a time of cool escape from the hot, stressful day. But there was a time when I feared the dark. When I was four my mother died suddenly. I became terrified of - well - it's hard to explain really what I was terrified of - it wasn't exactly the darkness - it was the way I felt mostly at night - I felt as though my back was exposed to the world.. to something out there.
and I know there are many who feel this way - not just at four but at twenty four, at forty-four.
So when I read that line, I remembered how I felt about the night - both the negative and the positive feelings. And I realised that the Holy Spirit which abides with us, is with us during both of those nights. He abides when we seek rest and comfortingly, He abides with us through the darkest and most difficult nights.
(heart) Tulip
(Passage John 14:16-18:16And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever— 17the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. 18I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.)
Monday, May 29, 2006
do I really need an interest so close to world cup?
"dunno... she's beautiful older and all that... but ...treading water comes to mind
....(and) do I really need an interest so close to world cup...?
that would distract from the important things in life"
(convo with Titus tonight- a friend from home)
hello,
I haven't updated in over a month. I'm sorry guys - I really have no good reason. I mean - I was doing exams and essays and then recovering (from exams and essays) but I don't know what I've been doing for the past two weeks...
anywho - I just wanted to share that quotable quote. plus I was ashamed that I hadn't updated in so long. I also want to give honourable mention to one of the pics on Hun's site - it's titled "me and the love of my life" I love it Hun!
hmm.
ok. see you soon! take care.
(heart) tulip - hungry (for spaghetti......???....!!!)
....(and) do I really need an interest so close to world cup...?
that would distract from the important things in life"
(convo with Titus tonight- a friend from home)
hello,
I haven't updated in over a month. I'm sorry guys - I really have no good reason. I mean - I was doing exams and essays and then recovering (from exams and essays) but I don't know what I've been doing for the past two weeks...
anywho - I just wanted to share that quotable quote. plus I was ashamed that I hadn't updated in so long. I also want to give honourable mention to one of the pics on Hun's site - it's titled "me and the love of my life" I love it Hun!
hmm.
ok. see you soon! take care.
(heart) tulip - hungry (for spaghetti......???....!!!)
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Early morning singing telegram
hi ho
this morning, in celebration of the beau's Big birthday I showed up at his door with a singing telegram. I arrived - unexpected - at 7:20 with breakfast {compliments to "uncle Tim" (Hortons)} and did a little Birthday jig. :)
It was an instant hit.
I must admit - I was really worried that it would be weird - I'm always worried about coming on too strong - you know - that psycho girlfriend type that you always hear about... but K reassured me (to the point of screaming at me - ok so maybe it was after midnight and I was still worrying about it) that it's really romantic and not in the least creepy to show up unannounced at someone's door (well - so long as the someone happens to be your bf/gf - otherwise I can't really say it's not creepy).
anyways with my good deed done for the day - I'm off to bed now - to finish sleeping.
this morning, in celebration of the beau's Big birthday I showed up at his door with a singing telegram. I arrived - unexpected - at 7:20 with breakfast {compliments to "uncle Tim" (Hortons)} and did a little Birthday jig. :)
It was an instant hit.
I must admit - I was really worried that it would be weird - I'm always worried about coming on too strong - you know - that psycho girlfriend type that you always hear about... but K reassured me (to the point of screaming at me - ok so maybe it was after midnight and I was still worrying about it) that it's really romantic and not in the least creepy to show up unannounced at someone's door (well - so long as the someone happens to be your bf/gf - otherwise I can't really say it's not creepy).
anyways with my good deed done for the day - I'm off to bed now - to finish sleeping.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Superwoman
Superwoman by Karyn White
"I'm not your super woman......
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that everythings's ok
I'm only human"
"I'll give my love and lasting love. if you return love to me...."
these are just a few of the lines from a song that took me through a lot of my childhood. I loved this song. I would sing it at the top of my lungs and close my eyes. I memorized all the words and sang it with feeling. I was NOT your super woman - I deserved love and respect.. ...
I *was* the song.
I can't explain it any better than that. I can only ask you to remember how you held onto things as a child - maybe it was a doll or a blanket, or a corner of the house, for me it was songs - and that was one of MY songs.
My father loved me to sing that song - or maybe it was just that he liked me to sing - and express myself - (a lot of people would have said that I was a quiet child). He even got me a record with that song - a little record - what's it called? and LP?? (see I was too young to even know what it was called) - but I do know that he bought it for me - before I could even operate the record player :). and he and I would sing walking down the street. (these days K and I sing walking down the street - but for me that habit has much older roots..) I would be a bit embarassed maybe at first - but once we got off the busy streets and once I got started I would be singing and dancing like there was no one else in the world.
it is a great memory to have. I hope everyone has at least one memory so sweet.
tulip.
"I'm not your super woman......
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that everythings's ok
I'm only human"
"I'll give my love and lasting love. if you return love to me...."
these are just a few of the lines from a song that took me through a lot of my childhood. I loved this song. I would sing it at the top of my lungs and close my eyes. I memorized all the words and sang it with feeling. I was NOT your super woman - I deserved love and respect.. ...
I *was* the song.
I can't explain it any better than that. I can only ask you to remember how you held onto things as a child - maybe it was a doll or a blanket, or a corner of the house, for me it was songs - and that was one of MY songs.
My father loved me to sing that song - or maybe it was just that he liked me to sing - and express myself - (a lot of people would have said that I was a quiet child). He even got me a record with that song - a little record - what's it called? and LP?? (see I was too young to even know what it was called) - but I do know that he bought it for me - before I could even operate the record player :). and he and I would sing walking down the street. (these days K and I sing walking down the street - but for me that habit has much older roots..) I would be a bit embarassed maybe at first - but once we got off the busy streets and once I got started I would be singing and dancing like there was no one else in the world.
it is a great memory to have. I hope everyone has at least one memory so sweet.
tulip.
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