A few random thoughts

thought while on the bus (May 9th)

• I just saw a woman with big curlers in her hair - and perfect posture.
• I wish I has the sort of posture that made a stroll up the driveway with yellow curlers in my hair look like a walk on the catwalk...

thought on June 4th (new moon)

• Today I feel decidedly under the circumstances, under the weather and under the moon. I'm blaming it on the New moon (which was yesterday) and lower than usual blood sugar (haven't eaten in hours). I'm going to go make dinner! (I can't change the moon).
• One of my students wrote a whole composition on potato wedges. Even I'd be hard pressed to write a composition about raisins (though I do recall writing a poem). And as much as I love them I flat out couldn't do marshmallows.

Two Tom thoughts

• I just opened and emptied a can of tuna - unharassed.
• I accidentally taught my class to give stink eye (it's so cute when 8 year olds do it!)
• Mid convo one student stopped and pointed out the window - cat!! (I love children)
• (ok, that was more than two)

Nuances

• The things - the - something that happens between men and women. The tiny little *things (zings) that pass between brief touches - even across the space between them. Do they exist? and to what extent?
• L, I'm in love with the language you speak. Like I'm in love with French men -ooh la la! sigh* I wish I knew all that you say. You understand me so much better than I understand you (thought to my deaf sign language instructor).

Seseme Street

• "Yeah, well, I'm a grouch - I'm not pleased to meet anyone. So SCRAM!" (oscar The grouch)

rainbow connection

"I'm wishing on a star.
to follow where you are...."

I've been thinking about that song a lot recently because I think I saw a falling star on Monday... and that song immediately came to mind. I never really knew the words but I always sang
"I wish on all the rainbows that I see
I wish on all the people we ever meet"

I like my version - because it applies to what I'm about to say.
I do wish on rainbows. I love where I live right now because in the rainy season I see soo many rainbows - one week I saw one every day for 5 days!
But this wishing on stars, or wishing on rainbows thing is something I'd like to clarify - it's not a belief in fate, or the stars. It's not a wish into the future - or even the past - it's a wish into the present. A realisation of the potential of everything around us. So much potential: in the people we meet, in the sky, in the day.
the Psalms (118:24) says

"This is the day that the Lord has made - let us rejoice and be glad in it"

We can say that of every day. It reaffirms that somewhere - in this day there is a reason to rejoice. And if we can't find one - let's rejoice because God made it!

A rainbow reminds me of this - reminds me that in a bunch of random water particles mixed with light - this thing of immense beauty is created.
Just think about the stars - millions of light-years away (in space and time), balls of fiery rock - twinkling in our night sky.
Today it's 4 days till full moon - my heart beats to think of it, and I observe the moon growing (glowing) every day until then.

The Lord has placed beauty in so many places in His creation.

Let's look for it and enjoy it.

Full Moon

today, prompted by a random question from a friend - this is how I described my feeling
"my water flows - and ebbs and ebbs and flows - with the moon... today I am full - with the moon"

do you know that feeling? when you feel full to overflowing? to bursting - not necessarily in a bad way - just full - of emotion - of hope - of fear - of dreams....of love to give....

tulip..aka...water

unreasonable days... how great to be a woman (well, girl)

hallo
I've just watched a movie with Nat - it's called "A Room with a Veiw" - it's a splendid movie - and you should watch it sometime - a romance for romantics... this weekend I've had some quite unreasonable days. take yesterday for instance - I woke up mad and continued to be mad for the rest of the day - except when I took a nap (being mad is quite tiring) and when I sang with the gospel choir (what an experience to sing in Hebrew....). here are a few of the things I was mad at - my house was crazy cold, the weather is cold (-35 with the wind??!!), then I was late for meeting my friends, and I forgot to comb my hair (arrgg! hair) (I spent 10 minutes combing furiously in the jk washrooms that were provided for us in the temple - it's funny how you forget how low toilets have to be so that little kids can sit on them... how short we once were!). and my boots have quite given out - and I could not feel my toes... and then I was hungry. everything quite unreasonable really, and Hiedi rubbed my shoulders and laughed at me being mad, and I felt a little better. only then I wanted to burst into tears at the slightest disturbance (and indeed I did). then I came home and had chicken soup (the best cure for any malady).
today - today was a good day. church - a new class I've started - where we'll study a book - I'll tell you more about it in the days to come, then wonderful singing, then pastor Don.
then Nat and I watched a movie - as I've told you. we watched it first in 1st year - 4 years ago - and loved it. and today, as I watched I loved it all over again. but bitter sweet maybe - it's hard to fully enjoy a romantic movie when... well, when your feeling unreasonable. and I am feeling a bit unreasonable today. how? well, I'll be a little frank right now (and cringe in the near or distant future) - I miss my guy. it's one of those stupid things where your sure you're all better and then something happens - or nothing happens and then your thrown back to square one and a half, and you can't help yourself. do you know what I mean? (stupid boys that won't let you love them). ok, I've been frank enough, and will probably edit this later..
how nice it is to have a surface upon which to rant (a veritable 'Kailey's futon' upon which I can moan) and not be alone in doing so.
it's almost full moon tonight - almost full and beautiful.
talibah