April - Fool for love!

Happy April fools!
I just reread the first line - I'm not calling you readers fools - what I meant was - Happy April Fools' day! haha!
Anyways this past week I feel I have revisited a former location (see previous blog entry here ) and I am unashamed to pick back up the banner. (The entry was written 2 years ago around now, must be something to do with the spring). Today, of all days, I will say it loud and say it proud -

I am a fool for love!
An April fool at that!

heart, Tulip.

Itchy

hallo
I'm feeling itchy, and prompted by my longdistance roomate who is currently not so long a distance away as I am sleeping in her bed (!!) (I had to add that!!) - (don't worry folks it's all G-rated - she's opted for the couch) - to write a blog (phew that was a longggg sentence), so I will write one. Though I cannot vouch for my sanity as I write since I've been having an 'off' past 24 hours (not 'off' as in bad - off as in mad - the crazy laughing kind).
'Itchy' the description I used at the beginning of the blog has a variety of definitions - it could mean for instance

1. I've sat outside without bug repellent and have been attacked by bugs, and since I seem to have developed some sort of allergy/sensitivity to mosquitoes in the past year, I itch (as in itch itch scratch scratch) for the next 2 weeks... (a sensitivity which I'm hoping to lose on my return to the tropical isle since there are many mosquitoes there and it would be a shame to be permanently itchy).
2. restless - as in I want to do something but I don't quite know what
3. antsy - as in I don't want to be doing what I'm doing but would rather be doing something else somewhere else, though what and where are often unclear.
4. hot and bothered (nuff said) (pardon my frankness).
5. itchy inside - which is hard to explain but which comes about when I've eaten too much of something though I know not what exactly, though generally I feel better the next day.
6. one letter short of bitchy - which is exactly that - but which I, thankfully, don't feel too frequently anymore... or at least I don't think I do, maybe I do but have forgotten it - my close friends would be a better judge than I... in any case - I certainly used to experience this particular form of itchyness when I was a teenager (something about moodiness and going through 'that phase').
7. like screaming and dancing and running around (clothes not optional since I currently live with a never nudist - haha).

Ok. now that I've described and defined, let me clarify: currently I'm feeling somewhere around definitions 2 and 7.

how are you feeling today?

tulip

unreasonable days... how great to be a woman (well, girl)

hallo
I've just watched a movie with Nat - it's called "A Room with a Veiw" - it's a splendid movie - and you should watch it sometime - a romance for romantics... this weekend I've had some quite unreasonable days. take yesterday for instance - I woke up mad and continued to be mad for the rest of the day - except when I took a nap (being mad is quite tiring) and when I sang with the gospel choir (what an experience to sing in Hebrew....). here are a few of the things I was mad at - my house was crazy cold, the weather is cold (-35 with the wind??!!), then I was late for meeting my friends, and I forgot to comb my hair (arrgg! hair) (I spent 10 minutes combing furiously in the jk washrooms that were provided for us in the temple - it's funny how you forget how low toilets have to be so that little kids can sit on them... how short we once were!). and my boots have quite given out - and I could not feel my toes... and then I was hungry. everything quite unreasonable really, and Hiedi rubbed my shoulders and laughed at me being mad, and I felt a little better. only then I wanted to burst into tears at the slightest disturbance (and indeed I did). then I came home and had chicken soup (the best cure for any malady).
today - today was a good day. church - a new class I've started - where we'll study a book - I'll tell you more about it in the days to come, then wonderful singing, then pastor Don.
then Nat and I watched a movie - as I've told you. we watched it first in 1st year - 4 years ago - and loved it. and today, as I watched I loved it all over again. but bitter sweet maybe - it's hard to fully enjoy a romantic movie when... well, when your feeling unreasonable. and I am feeling a bit unreasonable today. how? well, I'll be a little frank right now (and cringe in the near or distant future) - I miss my guy. it's one of those stupid things where your sure you're all better and then something happens - or nothing happens and then your thrown back to square one and a half, and you can't help yourself. do you know what I mean? (stupid boys that won't let you love them). ok, I've been frank enough, and will probably edit this later..
how nice it is to have a surface upon which to rant (a veritable 'Kailey's futon' upon which I can moan) and not be alone in doing so.
it's almost full moon tonight - almost full and beautiful.
talibah